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Weirdo
05:39
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I woke up this morning and felt a little blue
I think it's something to do with the weather
It's april here in my hometown
and the rain here is relentless
I could see it through the window of the school I went to
when I was a kid and now I'm the janitor
Ain't that surreal?
and I saw my grandparents the other day
they live down on june road
and they had just put down their cat
her name was Puss
and my nana looked distraught
I sent some love her way
and my pop was his joyful self as always
and now I'm dreading the days when they both pass away
So cherish the time now.
and I met a girl at an open mic night
at a little shop called Mudsharks
and she was really cool
but I still can't get this girl I met
in Antarctica
out of my head and out of my heart
she was from Britain
and she had the sunrise
in her beautiful eyes
oh, in her eyes..
and it seems like every Singer-Songwriter
has a song about a bad breakup
well, I say they all are lucky to have
loved and lost
or maybe I'm just jealous
and still hurting from
unrequited love
an experience I had
in my teenage years
which are now long gone
Funny how we all move on..
and I saw an old lady
walking down the street
she looked alot like
a grumpy mother teresa
and her crows feet screamed at me
they said she had seen it all
and it looked like her legs were hurting
and I thought that time for me
is a sunset approaching
my days are numbered
just like yours and theirs
So cherish your time now.
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2. |
A Day in the Life
05:50
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I'd like to sing a verse about a boy
and a young woman he had a crush on
she looked as if she was from a dream
but most of all she was self-assured
and surprise, surprise she was on my mind
when I sent her an email in March
and asked her 'how is London?'
she said her brother had tickets to Bon Iver
I told her "Flume" doesn't sound the same
without her voice to accompany mine
our midday jams on the Vavilov is a memory I'll never forget
I wrote a song for her called "Falling Toward You"
and played it for her in Antarctica
and she tucked in her knees and shyly said
that's the best song
but I'm back home now
with the distance that separates us
I told her that I think about her everyday
and she said 'I miss you too'
whenever she walked into a room
as her beautiful, joyful self..
..I'd dread the day we would have to say good-bye.
Now here at Airport Elementary
a school so familiar
the summer is creeping up
but spring is holding on
and I am here
buffing floors and picking rocks
out of toilets
and only three more hours
till the end of my shift
where I'll have a puff of grass
and get to work on my songs
but right now
I'm on my half-hour break
eating my dinner
in my old kindergarten room
which is now a lounge and office
for the teaching staff
who hardly say "Thank You"
and I stepped out for a smoke
and looked up at the sunset
It's beauty put me in a trance
and I thought of Lauren
and the world's problems
and the meaning of my life
but my daydreams were cut short
by a breeze in the Alder trees
in the evening amber glow..
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3. |
Southbound on Yonge
04:41
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9 people died today
on Yonge Street
from Finch to Poyntz avenue
in the North York district
Toronto's in a state of grieving
after a man in a white van
mounted the curb
Alek Minassian
was the killer behind the wheel
He was a member of some bullshit
Incel movement that hates women
because they can't get laid
and he gave praise to Elliot Rodger
who killed people
when pretty girls didn't come his way
this psycho's confession of retribution
was more terrifying
than any horror movie you could ever see
My friend Natalie
had lunch at the Soban cafe
the day before death was in the air
and I'm so glad that she's okay
if something happened to her
I would've cried
and I'll be the first to admit
I don't have the best luck with women
I feel beneath the pedestal
I put them on
being a 27 year old virgin is hard enough
when I was 18 I went into the psych ward
at St.Joseph's hospital
because a girl didn't love me
and I wanted to sleep forever
yeah, I've had some sorrow in my life
but I don't want to hurt anyone
just because no sex has come my way
why must we end each other?
why does violence exist?
and why, oh why?
Mr. Minassian?
what the fuck is wrong with you?
and why should people
just moving to their own pulse
be suddenly cut from it
the blackest sleep
in the wake of sorrow and blood
for the women and men
who died tears will be shed
and now I have this burn of a memory
when 10 people died on Yonge Street
that day.
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4. |
Hurdles
05:16
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My finger is off the pulse of the world
I need to get out and socialize more
I have a new friend from Quebec
and she gives me shit for saying "Sorry" too much
and hey, that's okay with me
but my thoughts still drift toward Lauren
every goddamn fuckin day
even though she's halfway across the world
and it's been 6 months and I still miss her
I saw on old friend I used to jam with
he was driving up Ryan Road
and he flipped me the fuckin bird
and it pissed me right the fuck off
I was in a sullen mood for the rest of the day
but I still wish him all the best
he liked to dress in women's clothes
and I said 'my friend you gotta be you
but that's just not for me'
but his girlfriend accused me of being transphobic
and he said I have zero confidence
well, I guess I gotta stick up for myself
a little more sometimes
a lesson learned..
My little sister got engaged last wednesday
and I'm so happy for her
I really am
but of course, I wish
I wasn't so alone
I took a stroll down Cliffe Avenue
where I saw every young couple
who were all in love and holding hands
and it hurt me deep inside
and I was left wishing for the courage to talk to people
so even though you all may have arguments
you should be thankful
to have one another in each other's lives
cuz there are some of us out there
who struggle to even find words
for conversation..
I saw a girl leap into her man's arms
at the Campbell River Airport
when me and my Dad arrived
from our final flight from Antarctica
she must've jumped as high
as an Olympic runner in a hurdle race
and I guess her boyfriend
was back from camp or somethin
cuz their lips were shaking hands
it was like a scene from a romance movie
and instead of wallowing in depression
I smiled and told myself;
'hey, good for them'
but I also hope that happens to me
one day or is that too..
..is that too naive?
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5. |
Granville and Davie
07:27
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I left an island of smiling faces
and took the Queen of Cowichan
to Horseshoe Bay
where I saw a man on the bus
who looked like he had found
blood in his eggs
that morning
and he was so rude
to a polite couple
who were trying to help the people
move to the back of the bus
I asked them later 'what was up with him?'
but they didn't have time
to stop and chat
Hello, Vancouver..
and I drifted on down
to Granville Street
where it was a hub of culture and youth
a place where the grass was always on fire
and later on I went to a 7/11
for a midnight organic feast
when a couple
who had seen the needle barged in
she was 6 months pregnant
and he didn't have enough money to pay for an apple juice
and it's off to chinatown
where there's a garden
dedicated to Dr. Sun Yat-Sen
and on the way there
I saw a man vomit into a sewer drain
as well as a park on West Hastings
where me and my friends once protested
and I saw the mountain perform
his songs of beauty and real death
after the show I got lost and felt out of place in Yaletown
so I stopped in for sushi
and talked to the waitress
she was half-japanese and half-korean
I said 'Arigato' 'Kamsahamnida'
and it made her laugh
and I caught the 10:45
257 bus on West Georgia Street
where it crosses the Lion's Gate Bridge
and passes through North Vancouver
and on the ferry walkway terminal
I saw a girl I knew
we went to school together
and I waved
she tucked in her chin
and paid me no mind
and such was the past
as we both went on
Good-bye Vancouver..
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my eyelids closed at 4am last night
I was up watching the japanese anime film Akira
but my black cat Ghanima woke me up
because she wanted to go outside
and when I let her out and stood in my doorway
I was in awe of the beauty of an early summer morning
and right next door is the house I grew up in
I have many good memories of me and my sister
playing on the playground
that my Dad built with his own hands
but now I can see that it's starting to rot away
and I feel a little tinge of sadness
but the sword ferns and the cedar trees and the ocean breeze
comfort me in their warm presence.
and I saw my friend the other day
he's got a wife and two kids
and he tends to gripe about his life
wishing he had this and that
and I just want to say 'dude, be happy with what you got
cuz some people don't have fuck all'
and I asked the cool girl from Mudsharks
if she wanted help recording a song
and she said 'yes, that'd be nice'
and I bought us tacos and beer after
than she said ' a guy I've kind of been seeing
is going to come over but we're not seriously dating'
and he came over and he was all over her
and my heart died inside and I thought it was really fuckin weird
than she gave me a hug and said 'Thank You'
and went back inside and I left all alone
and I was full of fuckin sorrow again
and I saw my Mom on monday
she's been a bit lonely
since my Dad is off in Norway
taking pictures of polar bears
her daily world has gotten so small
ever since the smell of perfumes, chemicals and mold
makes her sick and afraid of going out into the world
I remember when I was a kid
she was a free-spirited, social butterfly
but I guess some people change over time
and I still love her all the same
woke up this morning alone again
I'm yearning to connect with new people
but I'm still having trouble holding a conversation
which most people seem to do with ease
oh, this fear of humans, groups and crowds
is getting in my fuckin way
and my sister was in a televised, cross-fit competition
watched by hundreds of eyes
she's got her shit together, more than I do, in her life
but I still said to her 'hey, get out there and kick some ass'
and I apologized to my old friend Nick who flipped me off
it turns out my discomfort and fear around him
was transphobic and I said 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry'
and he forgave me and we both hope we're each doing well
I got a letter from Lauren on the weekend
her words were neutral
and seemed to have been scrawled in the last minute
and I guess that's a sign that I got to move on
cuz I sent her a card that I picked out carefully
and spent a week or more
sharing my thoughts and dreams with her
It's been 8 months and I'm still wondering
if I'm ever on her mind at all
and my Dad got back from the Arctic on Thursday
and we did some errands around town together
we had lunch at White Spot and shared a laugh
over Pearls Before Swine he'll be off
to Africa soon to go on a photo safari
than on down to Antarctica again
when I was a kid he had a temper you wouldn't believe
he was thin in patience and thick in confidence
but I don't hold it against him and my Dad is my hero
and I still love him all the same
I took a Friday off for a holiday
and my Custodial Supervisor
wants me too take more time off
but I've got no reason too
I don't have anyone in my life to share it with yet
I picked up my cousin James
and we drove together
to Ucluelet where our family cabin resides
James is a good friend of mine
and we are like clouds and earth
he's a redneck mechanic
and I'm an artistic janitor
there were some silences
on the drive to and fro
that we both wish had conversation
but it's no matter
cuz I love him like a brother
my friend Alice is helping me heal
from some trauma I've been carrying around
from being abandoned by friends in high school
and getting my heart broken by a girl named Lindsay
Charlyn, my friend from Quebec, sent me an email
it said she's picking Blueberries in the Okanagan
than she's off to her hometown, Disraeli, to be with her family
I don't think I'll ever see her again
and that fuckin hurts
that really fuckin hurts
I cooked a rice dish last night with chicken, beans and broccoli
the chicken was marinated and spiced perfectly
and I sat down on my couch
and knew that this lonely bachelor life isn't ideal
but I'll take it day by day
and take small steps towards some sort of happiness
and the day came to a slumber
as I watched the Japanese anime film
Nausicaa of the Valley of the Wind
while little Ghanima slept on my lap
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